Saturday, September 5, 2009

We learned


I shall never forget the day Hailey wailed. It was yesterday. I felt my heart plunge into the deepest abyss. It was supposed to be a fun day out with Linda & baby katie in town. But it was Hailey's first time out for the whole day. She has always been a short 'tripper'...she doesn't go out for more than 4 hours - max! So I wanted to try.We went out at 12pm...had lunch she did the usual...napped while I carried her, had her millk while I carried her...tried to nap again...couldn't..so I had to carry her - again...By the time we reached takashimaya...she was one moody bub. The baby fair crowd didn't help at all. I should have known. While carrying her, she was staring at me the whole time & frowning while having her pacifier in her mouth. She had her bean pillow too. Those were the necessity to keep my baby calm & collected when we are out. But all hell broke loose by the time I finished shopping at the baby fair. I should have known. I still tried to change her mood by feeding her before her time - milk that wasn't warm enough. (bad mommy!!) My bub knows what she wants. I should have known. I compromised. I decided to take a cab to wherever daddy was to drive us home. By the time we reached daddy, she looked calm & collected. So I decided to drive while daddy held her. 10 minutes away from home, she started mumbling...then sobbing...then crying...then wailing like she was in pain! I have never seen such sadness in my bub! It was an escalated emotion. She was super frustrated. She didn't stop wailing all the way untill we reached her room, had her lullaby on, the aircon on full blast - she was still wailing!! She looked at us super sad with so much tears rolling down her cheeks. I wanted to stop the world! It took us 20-30 mins to calm her down. It was the first she cried like that. Finally, she was at rest. By then it was 7pm. By then, daddy's heart has also sunken like never before. We remember this day. We learn not to take her stares for granted.