Just another day...

My 20 month old is at the age where she is trying to change the world while making my world go crazy...She is trying to communicate by yelling and blaberring only what she would understand. And when we don't get her, she would scream and THEN scream again at her lack of words! So many times I FEEL LIKE DOING THE SAME TO HER!! But she is one smart kiddo...the moment she knows she has ruffled my feathers, she would lean on me, give me a tight hug and sometimes, a big smuck on my lips is her ultimate weapon to 'cool mommy down'! She knows where to press my buttons!!

She demands that I stay at sight, play with her, talk to her, stand beside her, dance with her....do all the silly stuff with her! If I refuse or walk away, she would grab me by my butt and sometimes out of desperation, she would give my bum a good bite! She wants me to carry her one second, then put her down then she would change her mind the same second, then scream....then she would climb on our bedroom window walls, rearrange my photo frames! In bad days, she would throw my frames on the floor!! OMG!! She would throw her food on the floor once she is done eating. She would scream if I refuse to let her enter the kitchen. She would scream if i refuse to let her walk in my heels! She fights with her strollers, she wants to walk but she wants to walk like a jello...she wants to sit but she doesnt want to sit on the stroller...she does not really know what she wants actually! All she knows is that she has so much to learn and so little time!

By the end of a scream-ful day, I am exhausted! Lucky me putting her down to sleep is so much easier these days. I guess she uses all her strength in her play in the day. So after a few lullaby songs, (yes, I do sing them to her) she would just fall asleep in my hug. That is the best time of the day.

Even though I know everything will start again in the morning, watching her sound asleep somehow has recharged my unconditional love for my kid. She can try to change the world, but she can never change my love for her. =)

So far so good...

are u sure its safe mommy..??!

pure bliss moment! =)

I am still smelling my daughter now & then. It is a fetish I developed since I gave birth to her about 21 months ago. She has a natural aroma that never fails to bewitch my soul as a mother. Forget about the 15kg baby still demanding for me to carry her! Forget about the mess she makes when she is having her meals. Forget about the cranky night wakes she gets now & then. Her aroma tells me...everything is going to be alright. =)

Just a bit of update, she is turning into toddler sooner than I thought! We just came back from a 10 days trip to downunder visiting Uncle Pete & Aunt Jo...pleasantly surprised I survived the trip without the nanny! It was one of the most tiring days of my life! But also the many moments of pure bliss I have with my baby. I know she is going to grow out of me sonner than expected. At the rate she is going, I know I better spend more time while she still thinks I am cool. Soon enough, like daddy said, Hailey would want her freedom and perhaps - boyfriends! Oh..oh! Major fear of a father.

For now, we just want to spend as much time as we can with her. Have a great weekend!

Lil fashionista wants to go OUT!

Hailey wearing her teddy me black hairband.....impatiently wearing her sandals...come on Mbak Marrrrrr....mommy is waiting!!

The look...of love...is in your eyes....

Strutting butt is in the house!

Hailey has been strutting her diapered butt around the house a lot lately. She can even pick herself up nice & steady. She uses her butt as the gravity 'stabilizer' before pulling the top of her body up! I am gald to be able to witness all the milestones my baby is making! Thank you Mr Limin!! ;p

Apple of my eyes!

Exhausted Hailey!

We just came back from our diaper-cum-groceries shopping at Carrefour Suntec. Of course, Hailey was as busy while I was picking up the groceries. By the time we reached home, she still didn't want to let go of her diaper pack. Brought it into her play pen and after a while, she was just super exhausted!

The day the beehoon was attacked!

What can I say. Hailey was very excited at breakfast today! She had more than the normal fruit + cereal breakfast. Recently, her apetite has been escalting and she has been eyeing our food. So I decided to let her have some calefare at breakfast...whipped up some soup beehoon with egg and fish puree! Oh my...the pictures tells it all what happened next... ",)

Happy birthday to you...

1 year ago at this time I was at Raffles Hospital just in time when my water bag burst the moment I stepped into the labour ward. I still remember vividly how scary yet exciting moment it was...I couldn't explain the gush of water flowing down under...is it too much...too little...too fast....what next?! I have been practising with Hailey; heads down, legs up, shoulders squeeze! Before I know it, it was at 8.39am, Hailey crept nice & quickly into our world...for awhile before she realise she is out of her 9 mths temporary 'housing'. Immediately she had to take control and grabbed the oxygen mask nearby! That was my first impression of her. Strong survivor!! Daddy named her right. Hailey = Woman warrior Sarah = Princess

I could also remember the first night we brought her home. Along with my hero aka Haileys' daddy, the 3 of us in the room taking turns waking and sleeping...sometimes, all 3 awake! By the time morning came, I caved in and took the tiny 2.86kg Hailey swiftly in my arms and handed...no...surrendered her to my mom waiting outside of our room then. I guess my mom knew I would need all the help! Since that day....sleep is a luxury I have been missing!

I can't believe its been a year!! The emotional & physical changes are hard to describe. The lack of sleep, the milestones she had, the cheeky smile...everything happens so fast that I want to be more careful so that I won't miss out on the joy of seeing her grow, the steps she is going to take ahead! I can only pray that God will continue to give me the wisdom to raise her right.

In a nutshell, my prayers are answered. I have been called 'blessed' because I have her as my daughter. I pray that as Hailey grow older each year, she will be a joy to the people around her. She will be a compassionate and generous little person.

Happy birthday Hailey....Happy birthday Hailey....Happy birthday to my sweetie pie.....happy birthday Hailey! Mmuuuuuah!

Another milestone! 08.03.2010

Triumphant laugh after her first steps!

wohhh....mommy!!

mommy...don't forget to catch me k...

i am going to let go of my hand...

Its the last week of my baby being an 'infant'. In a few days she will be graduating to be a toddler. This evening I placed her on our bed. Suddenly she looked cheekily at me, stood up and gave a loud giggle before taking a few little running steps towards me! Before she knew it she threw her self to 'land' safely on me!! It was mind blowing!! I am glad I got to see her first steps!! I am so proud of my girl!

Let the education begin...!

Hmmm....almost! After being enlisted on Julia Gabriel waiting list, I was trying to teach Hailey some new words from the flash cards we got from Baby Einsten Discovery series...Yes..I have turned into the 'kiasu' mommy I thought I would never be! I just want to give my baby the best! Haha! Thats what all the mommy would have said in defence! But it is true! Well...looking at these photos, obviously I have to leave education to the professional??

Look mommy!!

Hailey was a trooper today! She braced herself to crawl for the first time! I think I have been too protective of my baby...so she just discovered...'hey! If mommy didnt always grab a hold on me...I could...move on in my life!!' Hahaha! I let her go this morning...and there was no stopping her!!

Time flies!

Isn't she the most adorable thing!! To all mommies out there...I am indeed prejudiced! I havn't been writing for the clear reason of being a first time mom and having such a cute bub to play with! To summarise the milestones, Hailey had her first bout of cold and teething issues...smack right on the busy month of December, in between 2 family weddings! Well, the outcome, 7 pretty little porcelain white teeth!! More to come! She has started to stand on her play pen just a week ago. Everytime she carry herself up and grabbed hold on the railings of the play pen, she would clap her tiny hands full of pride and....tumble down! Nevertheless, you will see her pick herslef up again!

She has also started to feel the seperation anxiety syndrome! Makes it more difficult for me to leave her for work...so most of the days you would see me having my little able-assistant tugged around everywhere I go together with Elmo. (Her best friend - for now.)

What more can I ask for? She has surpassed our expectations! Never had to deal with a cranky baby...never had to deal with feeding issues (she takes in everything!!!) Sleeps like an angel! After 10 months....I still find myself secretly smelling her when she is asleep. I speak to her words of courage, words of wisdom and words of love. I am called blessed because of having a daughter like her. I can only pray that God will continue to teach me to love and bring her up the right way.