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happy new year.... ?

Talk about 2011 passing too quickly, I missed the crossover to 2012, the long weekend that I was looking forward to have a good rest, to find a quiet spot to scribble my new resolutions, to ponder my success & failure of 2011...Hailey had influenza A (bird flu) H1N1 just days before the New Year. High temperature of 39.8 yoyoing for a few days that kept me on my feet. I have accepted the fact that part & parcel of being a mother is sleep deprivation. I didnt want to close my eyes lest her temperature goes up without my knowing. Not to mention, besides this scary influenza, Hailey has febrile convulsion history. So that makes it as important to keep her fever in control. We went to the doctor again today, it is confirmed bird flu. But she responded well to Tamiflu. Now you'd understand why I can't say much to anyone who wished me 'Happy new year!' - ya right... =(

Lo & behold, 2012 here we are. I wished I had some time to sit down in the last hours of 2011 to put down my new years resolution in pen & paper. Maybe it is not so much of the resolution that I wanted to work on, but more of priority re-alignment for 2012.

So much has happened in 2011. Haileys growth spurts, her vocabulary is expanding. So is her wrath and mood swings. She has started pre-school a few months back. But with so much going on with her skin condition, she misses class most of the time! I pulled the plug today, withdrew her from school - for now. The skin moluscum is also a weary concern. It is not doing her any harm. But what mother wouldnt be worried about the aesthetic of her little girl's.

I need to come forward to learn to accept - more of the many things that are not within my control. These days, I can see my character reflected on Hailey. My impatience. My nagging...she is picking up all the bad things to show me how I looked like walkng around with those traits. I need to change. Change is necessary. (Especially when you have a 2 year old mirroring you!)

No doubt 2012 has crept in on me (3 days now) I will decide to take care of me and find some time to put that pen & paper scribble into place. So that I may see all my priorities, my worries and my target for this new year which I somehow think it will come to past much faster than 2011!

So, please do not disturb me, I am out of my mind - temporarily. I will be back once I am re-aligned.